Homosexuality, my point of view… 1, June 11, 2007

Lor en point de vue général, franchement, li pa concerne personne la vie sexuelle des uns et des autres! Malgré le fai ki homosexualité considéré cuma en perversion mineur, ena ban dimoune ki fer pire et personne pa coné! La li entre adultes concentant, et mo penser ki en marche en faveur ou contre sa li aberrent! Personellement, kapav en gay pride li pou ki accept ban homosexuel, mé mo trouver ki ena ban marches bien plus utiles, et ki plis mérité… Sa ban kalité debats la divert nu lattention depi ban problemes plis graves ki p arriver dan le monde!!

Homosexualité li existé dan ban lezot especes, et si sa exister dan la nature, donc malgré le fait ki l’homme coner cki li p fer, et ki li p al endors la logique des choses, li dans la nature! Et kan to nature dir to kitsoz, et ki to refoule li, b li capav affecter toi a en point inimaginable…

Et ban grand philosophes grec ki tout dimoune respecter, vénérer, et lor ki nu société actuelle basé! B ban relation homme/homme ti accepté cuma en signe de respect, li ti forme parti dan certains protocols! Et si zot a la base de nou société actuelle, cuma nu capav a ce point fer ban débats inutiles cumsa?

Li en zafer kin tzour exister et ki pou tzour exister, its life, its nature, its humane, li pas physics ou mathématik!!

We humans we have a great gift, we’ve got CHOICE, so respect it, we may or may not agree with that, but we are equal & we must not judge!! So, let em lead their life, and may them not impose on others, let live like equals, whatever our choices are…

Haunted Nights 1, March 3, 2007

One step, then another, and another
The cold breeze, the moisture
Everything so wonderful
With the moonlight, the grey sky
A shimmer, then a murmur, causing a shiver
The gloom contrasting superbly
On this ideal night

Then a flash, all strange, all real…

Visions of an orange door
Windows open, lights off
The atmosphere, all but chilling
Perspiration on my skin, humidity all over
And a book grabbed, without knowing why

Then silence, a perfect silence, perfection…

Crrr, Crrr, Crrr…
Crrr, Crrr, Crrr…

Ahead was a fog like barrier
Of pouring rain, so dense, hurting
I was just unable to breathe
One gasp, one, one, just one please
Nothing came in, nothing
Just like the feeling of drowning
But standing, not sinking, no

Then another vision of complete darkness…

With this now anguishing sound….

Crrr, Crrr, Crrr…
Crrr, Crrr, Crrr…

Feeling strangled, feeling numb, feeling nothing
My eyes closed, lungs willing to burst
I was there on my bed
A black book in one hand
Sweat all over me
Murmuring things in my head

“Help me, Help me, Help me mum, mum…”

No one came…
No one would…
As I was stunned, unable to speak
Not able to move, not able to open my eyes
Willing to cry, just willing, just

Then a sense of dizziness, optimism
My eyes open up, my body torn
And the cold air in my lungs, burning
And the thoughts in my mind, horrifying
And, and, and… the black book open
The strangling presence disappeared
Only I remained after all
Only I, before I fall again and again

 

Note: This is the first think I have written that didn’t came from my imagination! This was written only for me to illustrate to myself those strange nights I had, fearing the most unprobable! I still shiver while reading it as, I know the pain I have endured and how depressed & anxious I was!!! I just hope you will never know how it feels to be haunted nights after nights…

©2006-2007 ~wein

some kind of dilemma… 1, March 3, 2007

relationship… relationships…. so complicated shits!!!
why is there a category who must always feel that they are better, much better than anyone?
why cant people live a simple life…?
and why must friends be stabbed by so called friends?
and y must this category of person be so convincing?
they play with your feelings and you see yourself with doubts! you dont want to loose a friend, they are so important in this fucking life!!! But there are times when forgiveness is nomore of actuality!!! when you know deep inside that you will loose it forever even if there is still love & friendship……
coz it will ruin you

i dont know if the person will feel betrayed… i dont know da feeling!!! but i know that it will surely hurt and i dont mean evil, i strived mut here is no apparent issue!!! Maybe in da future, when da person realises the harm made he/she may change! there will be only one door open on billions….
find it… i will give no clue!!!

ANYWAY… I MAY FORGIVE BUT I NEVER FORGET…